2 weeks into the new year

The girls and I have been discussing the meaning of "new year" lately. Resolutions, manifestations, goals, blank slates, starting new, etc., etc., etc....

 Marlee wanted to know if I make resolutions and do I follow through on them. I had to just chuckle as I think of the same goals I visualize every New Year, and always break.

Some examples:

•Eating only clean foods (doable, but difficult)

•Not losing my temper (ha!)

•Cleaning out and organize the attic (when?!)

•Not getting drunk until Thursdays (why?)

•Getting to the gym at 5:30am on weekdays (breaking this goal may have something to do with my previously listed goal being broken, I now realize)

•Keeping a clean kitchen at the end of every day (nope)

So I realized that maybe I'm not a great example to Marlee when it comes to resolutions for the new year. However, I do want to show my kids that it is important to make long term goals and stick to them. It does seem impracticable  

to me, to make all these promises on one evening each year and fufill them just because that's the norm.

I've decided to come up with an awareness check. What are we doing right now? today? And how does that affect the type of person we want to be? And of course being well versed in manifestations, laws of attractions, universal truths, and all that... I know that how we think right now affects our goals for tomorrow (literally) and for the future. 

So, we are working on a "Right Now" list. I'm impressed with what the girls wrote. Why am I'm always so surprised when they seem more aware and "with it" than I? While they've got a grip on things, I'm slowly trying to write mine:

Right Now, I am:

•Cherishing- all the friends and chosen family I allow in my life

•Learning- one new thing every day

•Rekindling- my relationship with my sewing machine, as it's my favorite method of creating

•Wandering- to new places on the map, planning a new place for the family to visit this summer

•Running- a little more each day. Perhaps a marathon is still achievable in my 40th year?

•Watching- my back. Sometimes I find myself in the 90210 zip code, distancing myself from toxic people.

•Cooking- at least 4 healthy meals from scratch each week

•Busying- my hands with a creative project when I become anxious

•Realizing- that sometimes I give too much of myself to people who don't appreciate me. 

•Working- on being a better mom, wife, and friend 

Hmm..If I didn't know any better, I'd say "awareness" could be my New Year's resolution, but why ruin a good thing?